I hear them, I see them, I know they are here, but it is still unreal. IF has penetrated the definition of me for so long, that I still have to pinch myself now and again to remind myself that I am really a mommy. I have been thinking about the issue of blogging now as a parent after IF, and I hope it is okay to just step out of that old club without feeling guilty. How healing it is, to be writing about their progress and growth, about our new journey as a family...
My heart always still sends love and light to all the women still on the journey and I want to shout from the rooftops to all of you never ever to give up until your family becomes your reality as every bit of pain is worth it.
Why we need to have to work through all that disapointment and pain is another issue completely but for whatever reason...please know that for me it was still worth every tear, every rip of my heart, every feeling of worthlessness, to now be able to hold my babies tight in my arms.
I want to leave fear behind me now. I want to celebrate this new role I am living.
|The day I found out I was pregnant....exactly one year ago today...|