It is very possible that the twins may be coming home on Friday!!!
Or Saturday or Monday - depending on how quickly they master the art of completing full bottle feeds without needing to be topped up by tube. SO exciting and SO scary at the same time! Up until now, while all I have wanted is to be with them...in a strange way, I have become used to them being in the NICU knowing that they are being so well cared for.
Soon, they will become 100% our responsibility. No support from well-trained neonatal sisters. No one to whip them away for a feed, a change or to sort out a wind. This will become our new life. I had a mild panic attack today trying to work out how the hell I was going to keep expressing and then also bottle feeding, changing and winding two babies every 3 hours? When will I ever sleep? Eeeeeek!
Their sucking reflex is getting stronger but they are no way ready to solely breastfeed so will need most of their feeds by bottle until they get stronger and realise that they need to work a little harder to actually get milk flowing from the boob. I introduced Rebecca to the boob for the first time today and she latched on only to promptly fall asleep. Finn is slightly better - he has actually got down 10ml of breast milk by sucking, but today decided it was far too hard so also went to sleep...oh dear...lazy suckers! I am sure with time they will get the hang of it. In the meantime though, poor mum is going to be busy trying to figure this whole feeding thing out...
It is more than a little daunting!
Tomorrow they have their eye tests and hearing tests. If we are given the go ahead for discharge on Friday then I will room in overnight on Thursday to get the hang of things with a little night support. Our CPR lesson is on Friday morning...and then...we may be loading up two babies and starting our lives as parents. This is a huge and incredibly momentous thought.
I had their natal chart done by my astrologist and they have the most beautiful charts with some incredible aspects and amazing connections to us as parents....I am so overjoyed that they already seem to be so blessed with such an incredible beginning to their lives and am so excited at their potential.
It is going to be the most remarkable journey now to observe as they grow and develop into their own little people...what a blessing for us to be part of this miracle.
Finn and Rebecca - about a week ago...