1st Beta

264

Oh wow, what a number.

I never in my wildest dreams expected it to be such a good strong number. I started weeping on the way to test, thinking about what I would do if it came back at 25 or less, remembering my first IVF which started with a low beta and then progressed really well, but ended with a miscarriage - obviously the low first beta was a sign of its possible non-viability. I then wept all the way back home just thinking about how I was going to deal with the possibility of a bad beta and knowing that I had POAS and it only showed a faint line, I was so nervous that it was going to be low.

I knew it would be positive, but how positive...not. Since last week I have been having a real achy uterus and have been feeling a little light-headed at times. I had a strong feeling I was pregnant, but as every IF will tell you, signs mean little against the fear and only facts mean the real thing.

And 264, is a good beta! The Pathcare lab called me first but when I told them I was the patient, they wouldn't give me the results!!! Thank goodness Sr Fourie called me back immediately and told me that I am very pregnant.Of course I wept and wept and wept and then pulled myself together and called DH.

So now, we remain cautious. Cautious and happy. As a hardened infertile, we know too much. We know what can go wrong. We know what does go wrong. How I pray that all will be perfect this time around and that finally this time it will stick and grow and become my baby...

Next step: Beta # 2...to see if it has doubled every 48 hours.

I am so in awe.