Finn & Rebecca

Finn & Rebecca

Thursday, March 10, 2011

1st Beta

264

Oh wow, what a number.

I never in my wildest dreams expected it to be such a good strong number. I started weeping on the way to test, thinking about what I would do if it came back at 25 or less, remembering my first IVF which started with a low beta and then progressed really well, but ended with a miscarriage - obviously the low first beta was a sign of its possible non-viability. I then wept all the way back home just thinking about how I was going to deal with the possibility of a bad beta and knowing that I had POAS and it only showed a faint line, I was so nervous that it was going to be low.

I knew it would be positive, but how positive...not. Since last week I have been having a real achy uterus and have been feeling a little light-headed at times. I had a strong feeling I was pregnant, but as every IF will tell you, signs mean little against the fear and only facts mean the real thing.

And 264, is a good beta! The Pathcare lab called me first but when I told them I was the patient, they wouldn't give me the results!!! Thank goodness Sr Fourie called me back immediately and told me that I am very pregnant.Of course I wept and wept and wept and then pulled myself together and called DH.

So now, we remain cautious. Cautious and happy. As a hardened infertile, we know too much. We know what can go wrong. We know what does go wrong. How I pray that all will be perfect this time around and that finally this time it will stick and grow and become my baby...

Next step: Beta # 2...to see if it has doubled every 48 hours.

I am so in awe.

13 comments:

  1. Absolutely ECSTATIC for you!!!!!!!

    That is a great beta! I hope and pray that all goes well for the next 8 months!

    xx

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  2. CONGRATULATIONS!!! I am so happy to hear this news. xxx

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  3. Cam, I don't have enough words to express how thrilled I am for you. You have travelled such a long and bumpy road to get here and the ongoing fear is only natural.

    BUT, that is one seriously awesome beta! I am so over the moon for you. Wishing you a happy, healthy and perfect pregnancy starting right here and continuing until you hold that Angel (those Angels?!?) in your arms.

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  4. Oh CAM!!!!!! Praise Him!!! That is a super beta and that aching uterus is an awesome sign too, it's stretching for your baby whose growing at a rate of knots!

    I am SO SO SO overwhelmingly happy for you.

    I understand that you're cautious right now and need to take each step as it comes, BUT beta #2 is going to ROCK, you're going to hold your baby in your arms come 36 weeks time.

    :) SO HAPPY!

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  5. What a wonderful beta! You must be overjoyed... enjoy every moment and try not to focus on the what ifs - visualise a live birth, visualise holding your perfect LO in your arms.
    Much love and light to you in this most precious and beautiful time.

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  6. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! had to wipe away tears b4 colleagues saw.
    Oh Cammy!! You have been on my mind this ENTIRE week! I am happy, ecstatic, elated, over-the-bloody-moon STOKED for you!!!
    And seeing as how you can't drink for the next 8 or so months, *III* WILL have a glass of champers tonight to celebrate this INCREDIBLY BLOODY MARVELOUS AWESOME news!!!
    YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAAAAYYYY!!!!!

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  7. Such awesome news! Congratz!

    Another exceptional story of hope.

    Ejoy every moment and keep us posted.

    M :D

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  8. It so wonderful news!!! I am so happy for you!!!
    Congratz!!

    c

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  9. I am wanting to cry here at my desk. Oh Cam, I'm so incredibly excited and thrilled and happy for you. You VERY pregnant girl you!

    Could it get any better than this xxxx

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  10. You have finally been connected with your spirit child...May you love and learn for eternity
    Big congratulations Cam....my heart is filled with joy and my eyes cry tears of comfort
    Universe, bless this child and all the wisdom they bring
    Love M and B

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  11. NO, that's an AMAZING beta!

    I'm here from Mel's Purim give-away.

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  12. Hi Cam

    Been following your news on FC for ages now and am so thrilled to see you finally have your BFP! You have had such a long hard road and this is such amazing news! Enjoy every minute of the next 9 months and everything that comes after that..... P.S. Awesome beta.... maybe more than one?

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